Will they ever be right?

9:07 PM Cassie 0 Comments

I look at you from a far and here goes my heart again.
My heart that is wild for you and you alone.

I slowly counted inwardly from ten to one
in an attempt to calm my racing heartbeat,
but it only went wilder.

I make my way to you to say hello
and it is as if everything happened too slowly.
You smiled at me and my entire system could only recognize you.
Suddenly, I felt how much I really missed you,
how I longed for you,
how your scent is always in the air that I breathe.

I know what they always tell me:
fall for someone else,
someone who is not owned by someone else.

And it hurts,
and the more painful part is that,
I am the only one hurting.

I cannot forget how I met you for the first time
and how strong your effect is on me.
I told myself,
I was only overwhelmed of how perfect you look to me.

Or so I thought.
I was only fooling myself
because the first time we met,
I knew at that very instant
that you are going to be one hell of a man to me.

I cannot be wrong because you are,
even if I know it will always be her,
that you will always go back to her no matter what.

And I know I will always end up hurting,
without you knowing.
Several times I thought I am over this,
I am over you,
but I never was because I keep coming back.

I cannot find myself to let go
and maybe because
I refuse to do so.

I know, too that everything is just so wrong,
that everything that I feel are all wrong,
yet I cannot keep myself from wondering,
will they ever be right?