I missed you

9:08 PM Cassie 0 Comments

Years and years passed since I last saw you. I thought I am perfectly fine,
with or without you.
Apparently, I underestimated myself.
I guess a part of me will always care for him,
and a part of my heart will always be reserved for him.

Years ago when you realized you didn't need me anymore,
that you're better off without our relationship.
I asked for you to stay, even just a little bit more,
until I could finally let you go on my own.
You chose to not listen and shrugged me off your life.
You made it appear as if I'm wrong at every aspect of our relationship,
as if I caused us parting ways.

I survived all the pains, I accepted the judgments people who know nothing have thrown to me,
I moved on from the heartache, from the heartbreak.
We have forgiven each other or at least I remember we did.
I understood that maybe you were scared, too
of what we're getting ourselves into,
but I was hoping you'd give an explanation,
any explanation just to close our chapter,
to close our book.

Unfortunately, you didn't.
I'd like to think that maybe I'm not good enough
or maybe I'm not an enough reason for you to stay,
that you slowly fell out for me.
Up to this day, I have not known the reason behind.
I never knew what happened.
I never understood why you chose to walk out of my life,
but I'd like to trust you,
that you did it for a better reason.

Whenever I look back, everything becomes bittersweet.
You give me so much feelings with everything you left in my memory.
I sometimes wonder if you ever regretted, too
that you didn't tell me why,
that only you know the reason behind.

The day I saw you again after all those years
made me realize how special you were to me back then,
and how special you will always be to me.

The moment I saw you again,
even if you didn't look at me,
I knew deep inside me that I missed you.
I missed you so much.