To the guy who will never know that this is about him

9:12 PM Cassie 0 Comments

I admire you, always have, always will
you give me those unfamiliar chills, those jaw-dropping smiles and those heart stopping moments
you never realized, I hope you didn't, the extra attention I give you without even trying to ask for it
you never noticed the warm look in my eyes when we come across each other along the hallways
you never perceived my uneasiness around you as something that concerns you
because to you,
I will always be the girl who is sweet, who is annoying, who is moody and everything else
but I will never be that girl I always want to be in your life

you have no idea how panicked out I am when you're near me that I'm afraid I have to back out every time
you don't know what's running in my head every time you give me those ultimately tight hugs
you are very well unaware how my heartbeats race endlessly when you're doing all those simple caring gestures

I know I will never get to have the courage to say this right at you,
but I want you to know that one point in time
someone has cared for you way too much,
and even if it is probably not a necessary detail it was me
I did care for you way too much and I guess I will always do
because that is who you are to me
someone worth-caring for

I know I cannot be that girl,
but please know that you will always be that guy I am so crazy about
the guy I like so much that you are my top secret from everyone else
you will always be that special guy that caught my attention right from the first meeting of ours
it doesn't matter that people see the flaws in you
because I do, too and I won't even deny that;
because I like you flaws and all
I like all the annoying things that you do and say
I like how you could care less about a lot of things
I like how you are not afraid what others will say about you
I like how you are not trying to be perfect at all
I like every bit of you without you even trying
how much more if you did?