My next big thing

11:29 PM Cassie 0 Comments

I didn't know it was possible, until it happened to me. I think I have always misunderstood the feeling of falling in love in such a short span of time or to someone I have not fully known yet because I thought that given everything I have gone through, I already know enough and better (or maybe worse). Apparently, there's still more to it than I do not know of because falling in love means being in a pit with endless possibilities.

We don't know each other personally or in a more honest sense, he doesn't even know I exist. I've always been a fan or one could say, I really have a huge crush on him. Needless to say, he is truly a good-looking guy, given who his parents are. But more than that, he's a man with goals and big dreams in life, a guy with a vision and thus, someone who knows how to use his smart brain of his. He knows his priorities, even if he practically came from a prominent family. I really idolize how true of a person he is, despite his family background.

I don't know what happened next, or how and when the next big thing. Everything happened in a blur, and suddenly, I am so into him. I didn't know it was possible to imagine walking down the aisle with someone who doesn't even know your existence. A lot of times when I close my eyes, I see a future with him; I see myself walking towards the altar while he waits there. Funny, right? Because I never had a chance to be with him, but it's as if I have always known him.

And it's weird. I feel really weird. Because I ever since I knew how to fall in love, I have never fell for guys I don't spend time with (then afterwards, when I fall, even if they go away, I still love them). Surprisingly, no physical connection was necessary this time, because I fell right away. I mean, I must have, right? Because if I have not, I would not be envisioning the next big thing.

While I am writing this, I feel like I am still lost in a trance. I can't put into words how strong are the feelings I am having right now. I hope I figure this out soon. I hope I figure myself out soon.