My Sunday Currently || 06
a pocket book-- Pretending to be Erica and I'm loving it! I love how I could learn the importance of truth out of lies.
this sixth volume
to everyone's voice in the house-- I'm loving them though. It makes me feel more normal knowing that there's life around me, none of my school papers and books, just me and everyone else.
about how to be back on focus when school gets back...but in a deeper sense, I was thinking, since last night, how so much have changed in a span of I don't know, months, weeks, days (?). It's crazy how things just happen because of you and go on even without you. It's like starting something, but it doesn't matter if you stay, as if your presence was only needed to begin things, but not necessarily to continue them.
the strong (!!!!) perfume of my uncle who is watching this Zombie Doctor thing series in his phone beside me
that this holiday would be just as calm, as relaxing, as content as I want it to be. No grand things, but just a happy one, perhaps? And that when I get back, the things (the people) I don't want to change just don't...although impossible (kind of), I still wish they won't. I wish they'd stay with me and as they are.
that I'll be able to redeem myself next year, that I'll be able to be in the USG once again (or maybe for the last time?) and get the position that I want to prove my worth, and that I'll be able to get through everything.
for assurance in all the continuously changing things
a pink Hello Kitty shirt and a red and white checkered boxers (perfect comfy clothes for the weather)
some memories that I shouldn't because they only scar me harder, deeper knowing that they will always be just memories with some people and could never be an occurrence again
the cool weather here in Melbourne (even if it's summer), it's dry summer, not humid, unlike in the Philippines. I love the maja blanca I just ate for breakfast this morning (and last night, too), even if it's soupy (or runny, however you want to call it).
to be a little more cautious this time to not to do stupid things I will only regret later on
peace of mind-- at least for this month-long holiday, so I could stop overthinking a lot of things and free myself
I'm-not-so-sure feeling? Maybe feeling a little numb, a little cold (literally and figuratively) about everything and feeling the need to detach myself again from the people in my life whom I think are too good that I don't deserve them.
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