9:48 PM

9:48 PM Cassie 0 Comments

Things are happening fast again,
while sometimes losing control of them.
The future is suddenly in my head again.
It either excites me
or it scares me,
and sadly,
there is nothing in between.
I hate to overthink,
I hate to think of the things
that I will never have answers of.
I hate to think of people
who have probably never thought of me.
I hate to think what will happen next
because it gives me extreme feelings
I don't want to -- I shouldn't -- feel.
I'm scared of the things I do not know of,
I'm scared of what hasn't happened yet,
I'm scared of the people I haven't met yet,
and I'm scared that there are no right words
to explain exactly how my heart is beating
so fast.
I just don't know anymore.
Frustration at its worst.